winning.

the hibernation and isolation begins.

I always did like Walt Whitman

"When I give, I give myself."

(Historical) Significance/(Current) Significance

Sarcasm. Sort of.

I voted today.

November 4th

portrait of me. ENFP.

http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html

libros!

Somewhat of a consensus has been reached among my friends and ex-lovers that I am difficult and demanding.

In response, I am dedicating my life to reading and staying away from boys (and girls) basically anyone I could be attracted to in any way.

On the reading list:

• Victor Pelevin, The Sacred Book of Werewolf and Buddha's Little Finger
• Boris Akunin, The Winter Queen
• Ludmila Ulitskaya, The Funeral Party
• Ismail Kadare, The Three-Arched Bridge and Spring Flowers, Spring Frost
• Imre Kertesz, Fateless and The Pathseeker

First, I have to finish all the Russian classics I am reading and get through the fucking LSAT.

I love books, who needs boys?

Lately, I've been feeling out of place.

confusion, clutter, and chaos

Trying to re-organize my life and get myself together.
Trying to not see this as a set-back, a failure, but a stop along the way, a bump in the road.

Trying to reduce my stress level and enjoy myself a little...not going too well.

Trying, trying, trying.

I'm just following the advice of wiser people: Never, never, never give up.

11 October 2008

still sick and ready to cut out her lungs, throat and whatever else she needs to get rid of to make this stop. fuck the oxford comma.

plenty of time--sigh.

Greek mythology

Russian literature

the economist

BBC

redskins

vice magazine

the monocle

lexisnexis

Amnesty International Report 2008-State of the World's Human Rights

Black's law dictionary

NYT Sunday paper--all of it, in a chair, not online.

Oh yeah, job-hunting.

Tomorrow

Conquering.

oh lordy

Having some sort of pre-lsat panic attack type thing. Fabulous.
NOT NOW, BRAIN, NOT NOW!

options

I can go anywhere from Dec. '08 to July '09.
But where should I go?

Cali-SF area
Texas-somewhere "wide and open."

Ideas?

Happy day

My score from the Saturday exam was the same as the highest in-home exam I have taken. Pretty stoked, I wanted to make sure I could replicate it in a (near) stressful situation.

My friends have returned, but I am well-equipped and fully-armed: Time to kill.

One of my co-workers is an elementary school librarian in her "real life" and promised to make an attempt to discover the title of the book that made such an impact on my small 4th grade heart. It's about a girl, a boy, and a cat. It takes place in a big city, perhaps NYC, there are fire escapes involved and rain. And a moment that I have never forgotten...in fact, I think it shaped my idea of "the one."

15 days

...not counting today.

Second to last practice test tomorrow morning. No pressure, No pressure!
I will take more practice tests on my own in the coming days, MANY more. But the proctored-in class ones are the closest to real.

Must remember to BREATHE.

I need to learn to meditate.

the henriette doctrine

I think I made some progress today. A concept, re: diagramming conditional statements (basically which order they go in to be able to fill in the sufficient portion) finally sunk in.

Sometimes, I can distort the simplest thing and become overly involved in the details, I fail to see the big picture. Sometimes, that happens while studying.

The killing of the fleas and intense cleaning begins: now. Either the fleas are with me or against me. And I'm pretty sure they are against me, surely they must be...they look scary and foreign.

LUTZ

I think it's something about the light in these photos that has me hooked.

Lutz showing at Clampart in NYC.
I want to go after I take the Lsat.

I miss NYC and I need some artistic refurbishing.

short-themed evening.

Phil from England is in town and we somehow ended up at the DC Short-film Festival after-party on a law firm's rooftop. Free drinks, and the guy from Boy Meets World who played Cory was there. They were asking everyone what they were in or how they were involved in the film industry, etc.

I am in British indie films that involve some S&M undertones. Oh yeah, and Weekend at Bernie's 3.

I partook in too many adult beverages. Amy said she was in adult films. "Amy Does DC" I also touted her upcoming run for NH state senate, completely possible. I would move to NH to vote for her. Phil gave me the best light-up goggles, the kind with a battery-pack in the back, that one would use for caving. Only much more psychedelic. And opera glasses, then he took them back and gave them to Amy, because she is more "artsy", it's actually "arty." I didn't have the heart to correct him, although I usually would and that annoys most people.

We later ended up at a "shorts" party at Asylum. We were allowed in even though we were short-less. We were wearing pants, don't get the wrong idea, please. A tall, skinny guy kept trying to dance with Amy and I, finally we took a picture with him and he went away, he was kind of gross and sweaty.

Per usual, I did some inappropriate texting. I've managed to make it an art-form now.

A splendid evening.

Somehow

I am drunk. hmmm. Let's see. 3 glasses of white wine. Yes, that will do it. Hopefully the hangover won't be too bad and I will be able to study tomorrow.

Lord, I know I have sinned, but I am a FUN sinner. And I can dance, lord. Lord of the dance. Lordess?

Hmmm.

Hilarious in my own mind I am.

heh.

Oh, Mr. Hillen

My friend Matt sounds like Lee on the phone. I had never spoken to him on the phone before yesterday. He got back from Egypt not too long ago and we were catching up and it really freaked me out. He asked how I was doing, and I wanted to tell him (Lee) everything I had been doing for the last 4 years. I imagine that he already knows though.

There are places I'll remember.

MOST IMPORTANT

My lsat teacher informed me that there had been a mistake on my score that was posted online. I have actually gone up 7 points not 2 !!!!!

I was so happy I screamed. Then my cell phone battery died and I had to take the metro home without being able to tell anyone. I almost told the dude sitting next to me. I was going to burst.

yo camino (I walk to work) al trabajo

Lincoln Park, Eastern market, Penn Ave., Library of Congress...Cannon.

Today i noticed:

Old people, fat people and young people carrying heavy boxes walk faster than I do. But my legs are shorter.

Fall is coming, and I'm not sure how I feel about it.

I smile at dogs, not children.

I really want to ask the woman in the park with the 2 beagles whose names are Alvin and Simon, "Where is Theordore?"

I look at row houses and think about how I would landscape them differently.

joyous spurts of energy

I had a conversation with someone last week who doubted the district's ability to encourage frolicking.

There is frolicking in D.C. : I run down the halls of the Cannon House Office Building...slowing down at the turns in case anyone is coming from the other side.

Frolicking does exist here.

This was my horoscope for Aug 18th.

Mars will enter Libra early on Tuesday, putting you in the driver's seat until October 4th. You will soon gain an outstanding advantage to manipulate events to your liking. After Mars leaves, this planet won't return to Libra again for 2 years, so the plans you put in place over the coming 7 weeks will shape your life for quite a while. Use this energy or lose it!

YESSSSSS. hahaha.

"The clean version"

I get bored too easily, luckily nothing I do is of real consequence, b/c i don't really give a f*&k. except for the lsat, of course, I give a lot of f*&ks about that...

Regardless, not going out tonight. Staying in to study, study, study.

I am so exciting.

Practice Test Day

Took a 3rd timed test in class today. It went better than the last one in general. Not as good as I wanted to do in reading comp..I wasn't able to do about 3 ques. in the last passage. I only got to 3 logic games, but didn't finish the 3rd. I'm happy about that though, If i can finish and correctly do 3 games on test day i think I will be okay with that...

I'm hoping my score went up by 2pts, we shall know on Monday.

Need to take a lot more timed tests before Oct 4th...

obsession is not just a fragrance

I just had lunch with a co-worker. I was talking about the LSAT and Russian literature. Apparently, I have nothing else to talk about. I likened the LSAT to being obsessed with a boy. You think about it as soon as you wake up, right before going to bed and all parts of the day in between. You write yourself little notes about it and dream of the day when it will all come together (Oct. 4th) and what the future will hold for the two of you...(Law school of your dreams).

AHHAHAHAHA.

L S A T and more L S A T

I'm totally obsessed. It's a good thing. Martha Stewart would approve. I need to be a little OCD, I don't think you can conquer the LSATS and the ADD's without being a little psycho about it.

Sometimes I think I want a social life again, but then I remember that I had one and it wasn't any more charming than the current situation.

Love,

me